Behind This Smile

Behind this smiles lies so much anguish

A volcano of emotions threatening to explode at any time.

Behind this smiles lies many many years sadness depression seemingly becoming the norm.

Behind this smile I'm alone even in the presence of others

Behind this smile lies insecurities consuming my thoughts an ever growing tornado threatening to wipe out my entire existence 

Behind this smile lies my need to persevere even in the midst of the darkest abyss 

I know that light will always beat darkness Behind my smile I will always shine

I am stronger than my fears I am stronger than my unforeseen sadness I refuse to become a victim of this darkness I refuse to be held in internal captivity when I and I alone hold the key

Behind my smile lies strength I will always smile in the face of darkness for I am light